Excitement is not always about something big…
Sometimes, its about million little things
I used to be scared of excitement. Because whenever i got excited, i always get disappointed. For me, excitement was a type of pain because when it came to me, i got nothing but frustation.
And i know why i feel this way. Things only happens to me when I stop praying for them, when I stop thinking about them and when there presence or absence have no meaning in my life. So i thought, its okay to feel this way but it wasn’t okay.
May be i didn’t know the meaning of excitement back then, thats why it disappointed me. I had considered excitement a big thing but it was something more than that.
Now, i have changed the meaning of excitement. May be getting a really big news or going for an unexpected trip makes you excited but that is not all about excitement.
I think excitement is “when your heart races”
And if this is excitement, then yes I have experienced it millions of time. My heart races when my mom smiles at me. I feel excited when someone says, “Thanks! I am really happy because of you”. I think helping some one makes me excited. I feel excited when my basktetball pass through the hoop and when i sketched something.
Doing something you love or be with someone you love, is another way for getting excited.
And i think I don’t have to think a lot about how I can get excited. I can be excited by doing crazy little things.
Sometimes, you get to know about your emotions by just giving a meaning to them.
I was disappointed because i was wrong somewhere in understanding this emotion.
Now i think i know the true meaning of excitement and i am truly excited now.